Saturday 13 June 2009

home alone

Today im home alone as David is away with Dave getting his car in Newcastle, I never really liked being along but from I got saved I have become to like it alot more has i know im not alone. I've been doing some reading and i never realised just how much information the bible as, its amazing, im enjoying it so much, i really should read more of it thou.. God is helping me make big steps at the moment even though i walk one step first and fall back by two, its a working progress... Im going to be honest i suffer with bad mood swings, well not really mood swings, really bad tempers and one word can set me off, i know God does not want me to live like this though and i don't either... I wanna leave the old me behind and embrace on the me God has been wanting me to get intouch with. Sometimes I cant see the change in me from when i became a christian but listening to Joyce, she has made me realise that i actually have but sometimes the devil underminds us...

Monday 8 June 2009

New days ahead

Over the last while ive been struggling with myself, i thought that God was no where to be found, maybe he was having alittle game of hide and seek but i could not find... so yesturday when David asked me to marry him, (still in shock now, lol) i could feel the peace in my heart, i just thought God you are there, i felt so much peace and calmness yest, thanks to David and God... im so looking forward to spending my life with my two best friends and i could hardly sleep with excitment last nite...
Also today i felt all good and could feel God so much so i really wanted to share it with someone, but i was so nervous and the butterflies were kicking in, i kept saying, on my way to work at 7 this morning, right ill tell this person, then no i cant tell this person. So i got into work and i was going to bust with excitement as God loves me so much, i just wanted to tell someont, that God loves them that much too... i build up me courage and there is a wee polish women in my work and i thought lets do this, so i said Do you know that God loves you so much, (give her a big hug) no matter what you do or say he will still love you. i was in fire on the instead...
lately i have felt that i cant overly talk about God in my work as nobody is christans, so today really blessed me so much as i was talking about our church and the youth group. we have a work experience girl in who is a christan and has only become one over the last 4 months. i said its tough but keep at it as its worth it, it was brill for me to talk about God and having relationships with him, i loved it...